Vignette’s of a woman

(…I just want to feel like the only woman you see when you walk in.

 …I curled my hair today for thirty minutes(!)…thirty minutes(!)…and all you have to say is hey?

 …on the way to meet you, I listened to our song the entire time.

 …I changed my outfit three times because I want to look perfect for you…)

 (…I love you, do you not understand this I love you(!), I want to spend the rest of my life with you.  Why won’t you say it?  How can you not feel what I feel?

 …I know we fight all of the time now.  I know its not as fun and you don’t have a clue why?  I have put my heart in your hands.  I am depending on you.  I need to know you feel the same.  I am sorry if that’s pressure.  I am sorry if that’s too much right now.  I need to feel safe.  I need you to say the words that make me feel that way.  When you do, I swear, I’ll feel better.  We can be fun again.  I won’t freak out, I just need to know….)

(…I’m sorry, I’m hurt.  I have been patient.  I know you love me.  I know you care.  I just want to know out loud if I am the one you want forever.  Me.  All of me.  All of my faults and neurosis and emotions.  Me.)

(…I am not waiting on something better.  I am waiting on you.  It was always you.  When you first looked at me, it was you.  How can you not know this?…)